I had a dream on 12 March 2017

about 2 men were trying to get my attention. they always try to make me accept them... actually one of them. at first I ignored both ... at last I accept one of them... then I officially couple.. he kissed me and we were actually happy until one day, I went to toilet and something happens. I was surrounded by few people, men and women as well... I had a bad instinct.... they want to bully me cuz I couple with that man... so one of the man.. try to r*pe me.. they recorded my voice and sent it to my bf. I was scared... but I successfully escaped from there and shouted for help... all the people that surrounds me just now we're captured... one of my friends came and save me... she asked me about my bf... but he didn't appear.. that time I was wondering and sad. then, one of my friends said... my bf is actually hang out with other girl study in somewhere else... I totally sad and then, I realised that I'm stupid for believing him... then I went home and decided to clash with him. then, at one place i found an old woman selling a fruits beside the road. and I help her.. until one rich old man come and buy the fruits. after a few month I helped that old woman selling fruits.... I realised that old man didn't come anymore... I was wondering if something happens to him. then tomorrow i saw his car .. and I thought it was him... actually it was his son.. so handsome n good-looking. he buy the fruits and after few weeks, we become a good friend...let's call him ZZ ... about my ex bf, I totally ignored him and already ask for clash... I always run if I met him. then, one day one of my schoolmates saw me walking... actually she is one the ex bf'friends .... he said to him... and he shocked... as I walking to old woman house. I heard someone call my name.. as I know whos calling me... he was the ex bf, I ran to avoid him again ... then,, he still following me until I reached at one place that too dark.. im scared. suddenly someone grabbed my hand and shut my mouth... thanks goodness it was ZZ... he tried to save me from that man. after a few minutes, it seems safe for me to get out from there... I thank the ZZ and we walked together to old woman house. but again I found him .. he tried to call me and see me... but I refused until ZZ hug and kiss me Infront of him. he was shocked... he tried to ask me ... why did I avoid him and decided to clash... i told ZZ that I will talk to him... then I explained everything what happened... then, he keeps saying sorry... until I asked him to be with other girl and stop disturbing me... then, I went to house with ZZ .. and he proposed me...

21 Dec 2016

I eat breakfast with egg mayo. started class with cl.. alhamdulillah I prepared the notes n when I came to class. I can understand better. forgot to talk about what happened that night before. I went sleep at almost 3.30 am! fuckin what? yeah that night I was playing phone. then suddenly at 2.30 am, my fuckin rumet Izati. stand up and came at me while she sleeping! she sleep walking! fuck! I was goosebumps that time and can't sleep well after that! I hate her even more

nothing happened until this night, we're having pbl dinner. eating pizza. 6 different family size. and after that we're playing a truth game. revealed everyone secrets... it's about crush!!!!

nizal - having complicated crush to one of his atch mates
Yogesss - ambages
Nixon - called yan jin as bae. he loves yan jin cuz yanjin loves to advice him.

soo ping- one her schoolmates in asasi pintar

ayu- loyal to her boyfriend

lyssa- Mahzuz n haziq tng

mai- xde

Catherine-zeeky?

wan- luqman

uthaya- one of her schoolmates but treated her as a sister

most of us wanna build marriage on 27, 28 except ayu 22. waaaa

Sir aiman having a comeback in my dream be like....

at first it was about the teacher doing a checkup on each room and reminding us about safety from the unexpected incident. so, after all that, there were bunch of male teacher walked Infront of my class, one of them is sir aiman. 😍 and he suddenly called my name and asked me if I had problems with money for PAU program that will be held at KMK around January. that program actually is about the alumni participate in the event including playing games with the junior and having session where sharing the experience on degree life. 😚 ok, he keeps asking me about the colour of stethoscope and all his friends laughing and leave him as giving us some 'privacy'. 😣 and sir aiman looked very embarrassed and then I said it's okay sir... u can go with them, I'll message you..😎 hahahaha what was that all about. then, I was in the program, there were also Wan hidayat, fazlihi, aminuddin.. and others what the hell all those who don't related are here too.. but then luqman also there... 😕 what was this dream is all about!!!

Complicated feeling

I've always said that I don't want to see him again because I'm afraid in falling in love again after what had happened in national services. after I frust that taking longest time to get heal. imm. that man really taught me about not to giving all your heart into a man that you just know. don't ever be a girl that giving all your heart to your crush. it really hurting. and thats why in matriculation and even in degree... I don't want to be fall in love again.. let it be crush and not more than that. but with this man I met in degree life, ML, he's in second year student,, I don't know I kept met him even though I don't want to. this another man MZ. he's same batch as me. he's like IMM. that time when I had presentation on hubungan etnik, I went to cafe kaca before the presentation start. so, after that I met L, he's using stairs to 3rd floor while I'm using lift. he looked at me and I just change my back from him... I don't want to see him... after that I entered the DK1. I went to toilet for checking my clothes. after that I met him again. he looked at me again. aaaahhhhh I don't know what is wrong with you. you have hijrah right.?? that's I why I stepped aside because I know I won't be by your side... because of hijrah...

That moment when u suddenly pop up in my dream like wth are u doing here

tomorrow I'm gonna have exam eom on membrane receptors. so today is a study day. I woke up at 12 noon ... before that I dreamt about Mz ... in my dream, I was sleeping in my room and he came and asked me am I alright? god... that time I was unconscious... I just slowly wake up and talked to him hahahah... I don't remember what actually we were chatting about. but fyi that was the best moments. first time he talked to me even in dream...