Mr.F.... Sorry ...

Xtau nok royak gapo lg. Mung dok ngaca aku lg.. kalu mu ikhlas. Aku minta maaf

Everything happened when theres around 1 month before I entered ukm. So... this happened when syaidatul akma.. a friend of addah... actually a roommate... she went to unisza. So she friends with one of the senior there. Then... I dont know but she gave my number to him. So one day... he tried to whatsapp me... so.. I just replied it... and continues until Im in second sem ... hes a bit annoying... hes like trying to getting closer to me... but you..  that I dont like this kind of thing. Well I admitted he has a good look... but still. Then he asked my pic... I didnt give him... (he asked my fb.. ig account. And I gave..) somehow... he stalked my fb. And he found my pics with addah n eima.  Then he asked me... which one is me... so. I told him that im the one who is fat and hideous with blue colour hijab. I didnt know whether he was trying to care my feelings or being sincere. He said im not that fat. And cute.

The fuck... then he asked bout my family like occupation and bla bla bla... then.. I asked him bout his siblings.... he said... he wanted a young sister in 19 y/o (that time I was in 19). So... I just laughing cuz... speechless... I know what he meant for. Then he said.... I think its good if I married wth u..

Lets skip this nonsense.. and I stopped whatsapp him. Then he keeps pm me in fb. Even kepps ws me. And next year on 1 rejab. He ws me... saying he apologies for any mistakes... and I feel like I need to be sincere to him... I told him that I dont like to ws man if not important. (Elakkan zina laaaa senang)

And then he ws me back on 1st Ramadan.... keeps saying sorry.

If u are about to read this... sorry mr. F .... im doin like u r helpless.... sorry. Gomennei....

This dream seems like I had encountered before. With....

 I was admiring him cuz he was too good and clever. then, I have completed all the tutorial (either chemistry or physics). somehow the teacher ask him to discuss with me. I was sitting with my friend. Infront of me is empty. he sat there and asked me to sit beside him. and I said., nahh sokay. I'll just sit here. and then one of friends sat there.. we're discussing and finally became a good friend. we always discussing and talk together until one day that was the last day I met him.,. we were walking together and I was a bit moody n he ask me am I alright?.. suddenly I cried. I said that after this I won't be able to see him again. I cried and all of sudden, he hugged me. and said he love since the teacher  ask him to have a group with me.  omg I was so damn happy