Dunia ni bukan yg macam kau impikan

Ada orang kata, Dunia ni ibarat penjara, akhirat nanti ibarat kebebasan abadi. Yaaa.. aku setuju ini ayat untuk Umat islam yg menjadi keredhaanNya Di Dunia dan mendapat balasan Di akhirat lelaki...

Apa yg nk diceritakan bukan pasal ceramah Di atas. Ianya pasal perancangan anda Di Dunia ni x sama dengan perangai Allah swt terhadap Kamu.. Dia Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk Kamu... Insyaallah...

Dunia ni x sebahagia yang kau impikan. sejak aku jejak kaki ke tanah ukm cheras ni. banyak yg aku alami tapi masa tidak mempersetujui untuk ku meluahkan kat sini. xpayah poyo sgt ayat kau. di sini banyak yg akan kau rasa dan akan kau ceburi. alhamdulillah module 1 exam telah lepas and harini 3 november telah kuar result. alhamdulillah lulus dpt c+ dlm module cellular biochemistry... aku mmg agak dapat rendah coz aku byk membuta... hahaha skip that nonsense later ill described it. i wanna talk about this man. his personality really perfect! his handsome, kind, clever, pious, love to smile. and his perfect just perfect... that kind of person yg sgt perfect... you think he will look at me? naaahhhhh even a little pon tarak laaa... but somehow... i try to keep myself away from him cuz... i know ill be hurt for the how-many-time-i-frusted.. you... i cant mentioned your name because my doctor Dr Azmi knew that i have a blog. im afraid that he will read it without me noticed. hahahaha yesterday, i stayed at library just doing my exco marketing works and pbl assignment. while im focusing doing it... i realised you entered the library and went to the second floor. i just ignored you because i know you already have someone that you love... yeah i know! i know everything and everyone talking about you both. around 1 pm... you came down and you looked at me and looked at you... and thats it. i continue doing my works. ignoring your glance... im fat, hideous ugly, not so clever... its just luck that i can be here... yeah i know. i wont suits you ever.. just please remove this stupid feeling from my heart. im just to scare to fall in love after the incident in plkn... just taking precautions. 

Cuma klau Kamu benar2 mendekati Allah... Allah akan hadir kan seseorang yg dekat dengan Allah berada di samping mu... Insyaallah.

cuma aku takut tgk kau...

hmmmm
aku xtau nak start Dari mana..... aku pon xberapa ingat sbb aku sibuk ngan exam Dan cuti 2 minggu. tapi aku perasan yang hari terakhir exam Dan aku nak balik. mulanya aku jalan sorang2... lagi setengah jam sebelom bas sampai ... aku pakai jubah hiru Dan satu beg kmk ADA laptop jerkkk... time depan masjid. aku dengar suara pompuan jerit nama aku. aku pusing tgk2 addah. so, aku pun tunggu. dia nk g amik barang Kat POS mini.

dok tengah sembang2. aku nampak kau otomen lalu depan. addah kata ceyhh wan. aku balas xde makna. tapi dia baju sama cam kau pink. hahaha so, aku pon macam bermonolog kenapa kau ada Kat sini. hampeh giler.

then biler bertembung addah mendahului lalu depan aku. aku pandang kiri which is pandang ke arah asrama lelaki. dan kau plak pandang aku xhenti. even aku pandang kiri pon aku still prasan laaaa ngok.... kalau muka kau dok terteleng ke arah aku.... mula2 aku ingat kau pandang addah tapi addah dh kat dpan aku n dh melepasi kau. aku ingat kau pandang kawan laki kau. aku usha xder sape2 pon selain aku n addah. Dan APA maksud kau sampai kau tgk aku lama2.

then, minggu pertama Kat kmk lepas cuti 2minggu. aku xprasan sangat. aku prasan gak kau sibuk nak pandang blakang time kuliah. kau pahal. ntah laaa tapi aku punya perasaan skang ni dah tukar Dari suka ke benci. sorry. aku ingat kau lain tau. tapi luaran x menggambarkan personality kau yang sebenar sorry.

then, hari tu hari rabu. si muaz beria nak wat meeting lepas kuliah bio. last2 dia xdatang . so, aku n addah on the way nk g skuasy court. baru je keluar Dari kuliah. aku nampak kau dok sorang2 Kat kerusi bata Kat jalan nak g cafe. dalam hati aku.... punyalahhh aku malas nak lalu situ. then, eima panggil. dia xikut. dia g cafe a. sebelom aku pandang eima Kat blakang. aku nampak kau senyom tapi hati aku ckp kau mesti senyum kat kawan kau.

pastu bila dh habes ckp ngan eima. aku ngan addah terpaksa lalu Kat situ. aku tertengok kau time tu.... mata kau. mata kau macam tajam. Dan kau pandang kitorang lama2. aku pon cepat2 pandang blakang .... xde orang... xkan mamat ni senyum Kat whiteboard. aku try pandang skali. sekali mata tertentang terus berderau darah aku. mata kau weyhhh.... aku takot laaa... aku xbuta lagi. mata kau memang menakutkan.

aku ckp Kat addah,. weyhhh kau tgk x otomen tadi. addah geleng. so, aku pon senyap laaaa...

sebelom tu aku eima Dan  Addah nk g klas math miss Farah. lepas Naik tangga, aku terpandang Kat balkoni tandas pompuan.... kau dok situ main fon. again mata tertentang. so, nasib baik aku cepat2 pandang depan n buat Derk jerrr

dalam klas math. addah Tanya aku. kau nmpak otomen tadi. so aku kata nampak tapi malas nak layan.

tadi lepas habis klas pukul 12(khamis)  aku jumpa kau lagi. kau duduk ngan kawan kau.... ntah yg mana. Kat lorong asrama lelaki. aku cuba wat xtau. tapi kau pasal pandang arah sini bongok!!!!!! APA masalah kau.!!!!!!!

well aku just xtau nk buat pa dah...

Haha. Ckp pasal otomen. Haha. Hari tu aku try stalk die. Then, dpt la ic, bilik, n0. Matriks dll hahaha die sk0la sbp integrasi batu rakit terengganu. Haha dulu ada la org ckp yg die xsuka org kelantan. Tapi bukan die kelantan ke? cehhh poyo. Haha aku xtau la seems like i really like him hahaha

Yeah this is the best dream ever. Guess what. Now its ultraman turns. I do love him. In this dream it really looks like he loved me.

Dan kau plak yad....

Why did i cant forget everything about you. Why did i always think about you. Even that wasnt my intention or my true feeling. I am love you. I do. But day by day i feel like my feeling towards you just fading just because of you. You. I did not knowing your true feeling towards me. I did not know your feeling right now. Till now i curious who is that nunul. Seriously i am saying that i am jealous. Thats it. Youre great. Youre just perfect but i dont know why my feeling to you seems fading. And i believe that we are not meant to be together. You know what. Just difficult for me to accept it. But it is reality. I cant oppose fate. Just wandering why did i spent whole my heart to you. And now i am going to take it back. But my heart is full with scars. Stupid memory between us. Seriously i am regret it. I totally regret for what had happened within 2 months. Just hurt. Really hurt.

kau dah hilang. susah nk cari balik. pengganti xde

Ingat lg x wan. Masa kau mula2 masok plkn. Apa niat kau? kau nak blajar psl agama. Kau nk lebih mendalami agama. Kau xnk wat perkara lagha. Dan time tu kau jumpa seseorg. Ingat lg pesan ustaz, kau dkt dgn allah. Allah tolong kau cari yg terbaik utk kau. See what happened. Kau dh jumpa wan tp lepas tu kau alpa balik. Kau mula jauh dari allah. Kau leka. And allah tarik balik. And u can n0t see him again. U deserves that wan. Kau hilang die. First time taaruf. Kau xnmpk die sbb kau xminat. Tapi kau perasan x yg die tgk kau. Yeah kau lepas. Kalau kau still ngn attitude kau. Maybe those thing cant happened. Sedar wan.

bahana zina mata.. jangan pandang remeh

Even that time aku tertentang mata ngan kau. Aku rasa malu. Seriously. Youre good. I really want to know you better. But it seems like impossible just like yad and me. I do realized that dream was the best dream. Totally sweet. I like you and you also like me. And it looks like we are meant to be together. isnt sweet. haha. I hope this is real. Because i already admitted that i totally fall in love with you. Seriously. And one more thing that i realized these few days. You seems quiet. Why? is there anything that disturb you or it just my imagination again.