wehhhhhh how can i move on

[8:13 AM, 6/17/2022]

 Peh mimpi tadi

Aku mcm buat mind own business... Ada lelaki yg mcm stalk, suruh aku buat mcm2

Pastu dia ajak

Berkahwin

[2:47 AM, 6/12/2022]

I mean... I haven't dream about them lately... Almost a year

 But somehow,, they have returned and disturbing the peace. So yeah again. Im returning to ppukm, like hell yeah being a junior yet again. Being study medic once again. And i was talking to some lecturers and guess what? He came. FB came. He was like too happy to see me then. But i was too embarrassed. Then i couldnt remember what happen but when i was there, like doing all the exams, then this man(im not so sure, was it irfan or other boys). He gave me some notes tho. Whatever. Then i cant remember things after that

am i insane

 I mean... I haven't dream about them lately... Almost a year

But somehow,, they have returned and disturbing the peace. So yeah again. Im returning to ppukm, like hell yeah being a junior yet again. Being study medic once again. And i was talking to some lecturers and guess what? He came. FB came. He was like too happy to see me then. But i was too embarrassed. Then i couldnt remember what happen but when i was there, like doing all the exams, then this man(im not so sure, was it irfan or other boys). He gave me some notes tho. Whatever. Then i cant remember things after that

but am i gonna keeps on dreaming bout this like forever?

tibah

 I dont know why... I was sleeping in my bedroom... Then someone called me... I opened my eyes and i saw dr remy... Sitting infront of laptop and in my bedroom... Asking whose baby is that... I was puzzled. Baby?! Then he grabbed his phone and showed me photo of baby with a caption... My baby (kot)

then he kinda shocked flabbergasted. asking me again, " your baby?" he frowned.

and i dont answer it, i just went to sleep. 

the problem is,,, the heck is he doin in my bedroom.

then theres something happened i cant remember.

new post new dream

 i had this dream yes again. suddenly i was in ppukm... and i met irfan n the geng.. i was there. BUT, i hid myself. i hid from whoever person tht i knew. i closed my face.

then, one day, irfan suddenly knew that was me. kept on asking why on earth do i need to hid myself. why?

i kept on saying how embarassing i am after failed med. and how i cant let out the guilty and this unsettled feeling..

but he said. why? you cant do that. bla bla bla keeps on convinced me how i am not failure. 

then he somehow repeating to help me, and want to be close to me... asking on how much he missed me...

then these 3 person, irfan, fazlihi, faqrul.... like having contest on to take my heart gitu...

faqrul bought me something... fazlihi did something... i cant remember.. and irfan was doing nothing but i waited for him

faqrul be like, choose me... but i cant choose.

then i woke up

HECK

 Entah out of nowhere.... Aku n member aku dh habis exam. Nak balik. Rapi rime tu aku balik dulu.... Ira n faqihah blom. So nth cmner u was in sudden marriage. Into a family who didnt approved me. And i was like being love n hate relationship with my husband. So like i want to celebrate with my friends. And my husband did like rent some place for us.but he asked for something.something married couple would do.and let me stop here. And let your imagination do the job. Hahahahahha

i do remember the setting... like a resort or something... then he kinda tried to hide me because like my mil doesnt like me. typical drama

he kinda give a house at one resort and kinda do ummm something with me there HAHHAHAHAH DEFAK

hello

 Wow... Okay... I was in dream... Dreaming having a reunion with ex schoolmates. But then i do have slight conflicts with awin and another girl... Then this man... I dont know him. But he is quite popular... 

Then i ran from that restaurant. Because everyone looking at me like im the one whos bad. 

So i ran. And this one man followed. I hide. Suddenly he found but i was shocking bcos they were 2 of em. Like twin. One of them infront and one at back ... Like both standing too near to me... And im screaming internally... Yes i love it

taylor swift kau

 I have this unsettling feeling when i dream about someone. So as we start, i was in one group... Seems like being a facilitator group... Then these 2 men like ... Like me. Ahhaha here we go again

And then this one humble man be like. Like me, want to marry me. I do like him and other man as well. But... I just keep on silent till one time. I just grow feeling for the man that confessed.. and i said yes. He was happy and i woke up

Before that. I had to wash my body. Yesss i do remember. My group has 4 people, me, 2 men and another girl who are supposed to do something with taylor swift concert hahahahahha... I kinda looks like one of the staff.

After that concert,then these 2 men came and confessed. Haahahha what the heck

another day another mimpi

 Nth aku mimpi.... Aku mcm berkawan dengan 3 laki ni....mula2 yg ketua tu.. for sure la the most handsome... Dia jual mahal ngn aku... Ala2 tsundere gitu... Oh haaaa mcm yg citer beautiful you.. jang keun suk tu.... Lg dua baik je... Last2 yg ketua tu suka himpit aku....

jual mahal.... macam ada part yg mcm kitorg planning nk buat ... pastu aku time tu ada orang mcm nak langgar aku... dok himpit2... dia tarik aku dalam dakapan dia... haaaaa shit

bersemut sial

hahaha

 Mannnn i had this dream of.... I dont i was married. And my marriage was not happy. Abusive mother in law and useless husband that always listen to her mother. 

So i ran.  Or divorced i dont know. Years after that.  I had my pregnancy and i had a daughter. One day me and my friend w my daughter went to shopping mall.

There, i saw my ex family in law.  I just ignored. But somehow, they noticed and my father in law kinda like excited to see me... My ex husband was shocked... I just ignored and entered the mall. 

But i dont know when and how... My ex  was running towards me. Asking if that is her daughter. I just laughed and ignore. My friends were there... Asking him to leave. 

A whole time i was there... He kept on begging to let him see her daughter. I was mad. I ignored. I hate him. I can feel the hate and the hardships i faced when i was with him and after we split.  

It is not that easy. And i wont let him, find me and my daughter. Dammnnn the story was so good