i lost count

 Aku mimpi lagi. Out of nowhere... F1 ada....  Beserta classmates sekolah rendah yg lain. Tapi... Dlm tu mcm ada dr remy tiber.  As usual laaa mcm dia fed up dgn batch or class tu...  Hahahhaha

So,  at first mcm semua tak layan aku... Sampai la mcm aku rasa aku boleh jawab soalan dr remy tiber. 

So ada sorang ni... Lali and pompuan approach aku.. Tiber jadi cm baik... Ok laaa

Lupa nak habaq... Dlm semua amik course mcm degree of musik hahahahah

And then aku duduk depan sikit dari F1....  Dia jual mahal... Tak nak sembang.  Tp one of hia gang tegur aku....  Im not sure who... Tp aku layan je. 

Pastu one time, aku duduk sebaris dia. I can feel he tried to nak cakap ngn aku. Tp ego... So lantak laaa.... So aku pon jual mahal. 

Tiba2 aku dpt kek and makanan.... Kawan aku pompuan mcm ira...  Kitorang tgh sembang... F1 tiba2 mcm jeles. Dia pon cakap kuat ngn member dia. Mcm nak ganggu aku n ira sembang. Hahahhahahah the end

It's just that I don't know why did he always kept on entering my dream like that. Once i didnt and didnt care about him. And i didnt think about him at all... 

It's just why tho... Why... Why u not other people

again, i run away

i dreamt about fahmy... he tried to chase me at ppukm kot... but what the hell that i ran away from him and his friends,,, lots of friends like help him on finding me. i ran... ran through all lifts ... lotsss of lifts. 

i ran away from tying knot with him. i didnt know but why?

 ive been avoiding him ,,, try to not to remember anything bout him.  its been like what? how many times do i ran away from men like this. 

in dream and IN REAL LIFE. 

i do fall in love with him. i do love him. but i keep on reminding how unsuitable we are. how bad i am beside him. 

and i left because i knew i lame i am. 

omg

 so, like i dreamt about iz. so like i was staying in some place looks like a bungalow, with a huge park. with all the taman2 bunga. and i dont know how in the world that that man is staying next to my house. like watdehek. and then... iz there staying with sidd how coincidence.... but i dont know why... it just like we were like in tied. engaged. but im running from him. i... just dont know. he looks depressed hahahahhahah

another annoying dream

 yup again, i dreamt about i was in ktdi but this time i was in ktdi1 where yup... they know me. they recognized me. i was afraid. embarrassed.

the first man. i couldnt remember. he recognized me. he called my name and others noticed me.

im scared. i ran,, as fast as i could. cuz i dont know what to react. it just. why did i placed in ktdi2. why in all places. i stucked here.'

the fact that im so scared when i went to hukm. i was paranoid. yeah

26 MARCH - WEIRD AND KINDA DARK REALLY?

so dreamt about i went to school. and somehow... im in a some kind of in hardship. i didnt know why but the settings were in school. i was there, once i entered the class. so, like narmi prepared my table. and then he disappeared. but the came the twins nad, they came asking, wether it is true or not. so like? then i remembered. i went school despite im having family's problem. and the fact that my mom actually feeling unwell. where she's still unconscious. 

but then, im looking for my chair. and suddenly F1 came and gave me his chair and he sit next to me. i said that, its okayi can take my own chair, but he insisted.

how lovely. ( the fact that im too scared to talk to him irl. but he seems too sweet and concern about me in dream. same goes to narmi. these past 2 years, i realized. how these 2 kept on popped up in my dream. i just want to thank for making me happy. ahahahhaha de hell)

but then, somehow, sir aiman and sir haziq were there, teaching. hahahahaha and throughout the teaching process, F1 keep asking, how i feel. asking bout problem. he just ask too many questions. how i appreciated that. lovely. seriously. thanks for making my dream lovely ahahhhahahahaha

my kind of ability HAAHAHAHAHHAHAHA de fak

since primary school, i oftenly dream. at first i always dreamt something dark. like how ustaz said that kind of dream means something bad happened. well, i knew it. and then, everything started there. a man that i didnt know who. but that man always popped up in my dream . different days. but same character. 

so like one thing i know for sure, whenever i dream. i can decide what happen and what to do. but sometime la... so like i googled, of kos....

it is called lucid dream.

so yeah my useless ability. but one thing for sure, i can remember every single thing happend. like it was very clear, the place, the setting, the character. excepts the man that i didnt know

and sometimes, my dream can be continued. like it just naturally continued from the last 2 years dream. like same person, same place, what the hell

another day another mimpi another post

 yeah im back with another mimpi... 

i was with my bestfriends... we were talking somewhere. but then, theres came a group of men. popular and handsome. which is i know i would never be with em...

yeah and as usual... i just pretending that i dont care...ignoring em... and suddenly i just went to canteen.. wanted to buy something to eat. then came the leader of the popular boy group just now... standing beside me..

i just ignore it and he said something but i cant exactly hear it..

he kept on asking to be friend with me.. i just feels like i cant.. im not suits him... and i just ran ran ran

i cnt really remember what he did.. but he did something really big i presume,, he did something to amaze me. he did many things .. but i dont know... i just cant accepting him...

i didnt know why but he is a really good man. but i was insecure and i cant think of any of the chances to be with him.. 

but long story short.. finally i accepted him... and then the story continues with my friend.. with the same problem... INSECURE

fi....

 i just realized that you are my first boyfriend ive ever had actually... but i dump you. im sorry.... its for our sake.... f idham

that doa tho

 so im in plkn. when i was crazy of Y. syira kinda said to me.... wan recite this Doa...

= "Ya Allah, jika dia buatku, dekatkanlah. jika dia bukan untukku. jauhkanlah." 

i recite that kinda  whole week. so, you know what. hes gone. ahahhahahahahaha

i just realised that now

omg

wan you should stop dreaming ahahahhahahaha

another dream (kinda hurts and cringe? af)

 so like it started like this. i was close to this man. a very popular man and handsome. i didnt knew him. and yet i was so close to him. so like im been attacked by girls who want that man. and yet i didnt care cuz i feel like it doesnt matter tho. obviously that man noticed. and suddenly that man asked me out. and i accepted. 

so everything went as usual until i didnt know why but suddenly that man decided to stop our relationship. and i was flustered and flabbergasted. 

yes i did move on. i forget everything bout him trying to move on. and i didnt have any enemies. since i didnt contacted that man ever. so,,, after all that break up. ive became a new person. i changed, i went to a famous girl. girls who hates me before became friends of mine. 

so after that i became beautiful. and i suddenly saw that man. i just ignored him and just left him. i didnt feel like i need to have any regret or somethings. ahahhahaha

so like i met this new man..... everything went perfectly but,.... i didnt know why the hell that man (ex) came to me... with that rage....

aahhhhhhh after all this,,, i kinda realised... im in bridgerton series

what defak

no worries i cant continue cuz i woke up

another dream after a hectic exam week

 so yeah another freaking dreamland.

so like my family moves to somewhere else. and i woke up listening that lots of my friends came to see me... i saw my fon's noti... they were like asking me why did i moved and some of em like i didnt know who asking me to send picture of mine and asking to know me better the hell.

so yeah i dont care about others but i just saw imran was there. (at this point irl i was like i do fall inlove with him but not more than crush cuz i didnt like how the fact that his family kinda too high standards.

and i was there eating w pika n ama... before that like theres 2 men came and like wanted to make friend. but ignore obviously... how i always ignore when im irl. 

so like ama said, how im being so damn concerned about me. asking why i moved. and somehow he saved me by catching snakes around my house like what 3 times? dont ask me why.......

and then.. i said,, why did he sacrificed himself to help me. but then ama said,,, its kinda sus when im said that actually you, wan already saved him 3 time. and now he saved you 3 times too... but i didnt get the whole meaning of what i did to save him...

so yeah ofcourse as usual at the climax ... the moments had come. i woke up