Sir aiman having a comeback in my dream be like....

at first it was about the teacher doing a checkup on each room and reminding us about safety from the unexpected incident. so, after all that, there were bunch of male teacher walked Infront of my class, one of them is sir aiman. 😍 and he suddenly called my name and asked me if I had problems with money for PAU program that will be held at KMK around January. that program actually is about the alumni participate in the event including playing games with the junior and having session where sharing the experience on degree life. 😚 ok, he keeps asking me about the colour of stethoscope and all his friends laughing and leave him as giving us some 'privacy'. 😣 and sir aiman looked very embarrassed and then I said it's okay sir... u can go with them, I'll message you..😎 hahahaha what was that all about. then, I was in the program, there were also Wan hidayat, fazlihi, aminuddin.. and others what the hell all those who don't related are here too.. but then luqman also there... 😕 what was this dream is all about!!!

Complicated feeling

I've always said that I don't want to see him again because I'm afraid in falling in love again after what had happened in national services. after I frust that taking longest time to get heal. imm. that man really taught me about not to giving all your heart into a man that you just know. don't ever be a girl that giving all your heart to your crush. it really hurting. and thats why in matriculation and even in degree... I don't want to be fall in love again.. let it be crush and not more than that. but with this man I met in degree life, ML, he's in second year student,, I don't know I kept met him even though I don't want to. this another man MZ. he's same batch as me. he's like IMM. that time when I had presentation on hubungan etnik, I went to cafe kaca before the presentation start. so, after that I met L, he's using stairs to 3rd floor while I'm using lift. he looked at me and I just change my back from him... I don't want to see him... after that I entered the DK1. I went to toilet for checking my clothes. after that I met him again. he looked at me again. aaaahhhhh I don't know what is wrong with you. you have hijrah right.?? that's I why I stepped aside because I know I won't be by your side... because of hijrah...

That moment when u suddenly pop up in my dream like wth are u doing here

tomorrow I'm gonna have exam eom on membrane receptors. so today is a study day. I woke up at 12 noon ... before that I dreamt about Mz ... in my dream, I was sleeping in my room and he came and asked me am I alright? god... that time I was unconscious... I just slowly wake up and talked to him hahahah... I don't remember what actually we were chatting about. but fyi that was the best moments. first time he talked to me even in dream...

Dunia ni bukan yg macam kau impikan

Ada orang kata, Dunia ni ibarat penjara, akhirat nanti ibarat kebebasan abadi. Yaaa.. aku setuju ini ayat untuk Umat islam yg menjadi keredhaanNya Di Dunia dan mendapat balasan Di akhirat lelaki...

Apa yg nk diceritakan bukan pasal ceramah Di atas. Ianya pasal perancangan anda Di Dunia ni x sama dengan perangai Allah swt terhadap Kamu.. Dia Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk Kamu... Insyaallah...

Dunia ni x sebahagia yang kau impikan. sejak aku jejak kaki ke tanah ukm cheras ni. banyak yg aku alami tapi masa tidak mempersetujui untuk ku meluahkan kat sini. xpayah poyo sgt ayat kau. di sini banyak yg akan kau rasa dan akan kau ceburi. alhamdulillah module 1 exam telah lepas and harini 3 november telah kuar result. alhamdulillah lulus dpt c+ dlm module cellular biochemistry... aku mmg agak dapat rendah coz aku byk membuta... hahaha skip that nonsense later ill described it. i wanna talk about this man. his personality really perfect! his handsome, kind, clever, pious, love to smile. and his perfect just perfect... that kind of person yg sgt perfect... you think he will look at me? naaahhhhh even a little pon tarak laaa... but somehow... i try to keep myself away from him cuz... i know ill be hurt for the how-many-time-i-frusted.. you... i cant mentioned your name because my doctor Dr Azmi knew that i have a blog. im afraid that he will read it without me noticed. hahahaha yesterday, i stayed at library just doing my exco marketing works and pbl assignment. while im focusing doing it... i realised you entered the library and went to the second floor. i just ignored you because i know you already have someone that you love... yeah i know! i know everything and everyone talking about you both. around 1 pm... you came down and you looked at me and looked at you... and thats it. i continue doing my works. ignoring your glance... im fat, hideous ugly, not so clever... its just luck that i can be here... yeah i know. i wont suits you ever.. just please remove this stupid feeling from my heart. im just to scare to fall in love after the incident in plkn... just taking precautions. 

Cuma klau Kamu benar2 mendekati Allah... Allah akan hadir kan seseorang yg dekat dengan Allah berada di samping mu... Insyaallah.

cuma aku takut tgk kau...

hmmmm
aku xtau nak start Dari mana..... aku pon xberapa ingat sbb aku sibuk ngan exam Dan cuti 2 minggu. tapi aku perasan yang hari terakhir exam Dan aku nak balik. mulanya aku jalan sorang2... lagi setengah jam sebelom bas sampai ... aku pakai jubah hiru Dan satu beg kmk ADA laptop jerkkk... time depan masjid. aku dengar suara pompuan jerit nama aku. aku pusing tgk2 addah. so, aku pun tunggu. dia nk g amik barang Kat POS mini.

dok tengah sembang2. aku nampak kau otomen lalu depan. addah kata ceyhh wan. aku balas xde makna. tapi dia baju sama cam kau pink. hahaha so, aku pon macam bermonolog kenapa kau ada Kat sini. hampeh giler.

then biler bertembung addah mendahului lalu depan aku. aku pandang kiri which is pandang ke arah asrama lelaki. dan kau plak pandang aku xhenti. even aku pandang kiri pon aku still prasan laaaa ngok.... kalau muka kau dok terteleng ke arah aku.... mula2 aku ingat kau pandang addah tapi addah dh kat dpan aku n dh melepasi kau. aku ingat kau pandang kawan laki kau. aku usha xder sape2 pon selain aku n addah. Dan APA maksud kau sampai kau tgk aku lama2.

then, minggu pertama Kat kmk lepas cuti 2minggu. aku xprasan sangat. aku prasan gak kau sibuk nak pandang blakang time kuliah. kau pahal. ntah laaa tapi aku punya perasaan skang ni dah tukar Dari suka ke benci. sorry. aku ingat kau lain tau. tapi luaran x menggambarkan personality kau yang sebenar sorry.

then, hari tu hari rabu. si muaz beria nak wat meeting lepas kuliah bio. last2 dia xdatang . so, aku n addah on the way nk g skuasy court. baru je keluar Dari kuliah. aku nampak kau dok sorang2 Kat kerusi bata Kat jalan nak g cafe. dalam hati aku.... punyalahhh aku malas nak lalu situ. then, eima panggil. dia xikut. dia g cafe a. sebelom aku pandang eima Kat blakang. aku nampak kau senyom tapi hati aku ckp kau mesti senyum kat kawan kau.

pastu bila dh habes ckp ngan eima. aku ngan addah terpaksa lalu Kat situ. aku tertengok kau time tu.... mata kau. mata kau macam tajam. Dan kau pandang kitorang lama2. aku pon cepat2 pandang blakang .... xde orang... xkan mamat ni senyum Kat whiteboard. aku try pandang skali. sekali mata tertentang terus berderau darah aku. mata kau weyhhh.... aku takot laaa... aku xbuta lagi. mata kau memang menakutkan.

aku ckp Kat addah,. weyhhh kau tgk x otomen tadi. addah geleng. so, aku pon senyap laaaa...

sebelom tu aku eima Dan  Addah nk g klas math miss Farah. lepas Naik tangga, aku terpandang Kat balkoni tandas pompuan.... kau dok situ main fon. again mata tertentang. so, nasib baik aku cepat2 pandang depan n buat Derk jerrr

dalam klas math. addah Tanya aku. kau nmpak otomen tadi. so aku kata nampak tapi malas nak layan.

tadi lepas habis klas pukul 12(khamis)  aku jumpa kau lagi. kau duduk ngan kawan kau.... ntah yg mana. Kat lorong asrama lelaki. aku cuba wat xtau. tapi kau pasal pandang arah sini bongok!!!!!! APA masalah kau.!!!!!!!

well aku just xtau nk buat pa dah...

Haha. Ckp pasal otomen. Haha. Hari tu aku try stalk die. Then, dpt la ic, bilik, n0. Matriks dll hahaha die sk0la sbp integrasi batu rakit terengganu. Haha dulu ada la org ckp yg die xsuka org kelantan. Tapi bukan die kelantan ke? cehhh poyo. Haha aku xtau la seems like i really like him hahaha

Yeah this is the best dream ever. Guess what. Now its ultraman turns. I do love him. In this dream it really looks like he loved me.

Dan kau plak yad....

Why did i cant forget everything about you. Why did i always think about you. Even that wasnt my intention or my true feeling. I am love you. I do. But day by day i feel like my feeling towards you just fading just because of you. You. I did not knowing your true feeling towards me. I did not know your feeling right now. Till now i curious who is that nunul. Seriously i am saying that i am jealous. Thats it. Youre great. Youre just perfect but i dont know why my feeling to you seems fading. And i believe that we are not meant to be together. You know what. Just difficult for me to accept it. But it is reality. I cant oppose fate. Just wandering why did i spent whole my heart to you. And now i am going to take it back. But my heart is full with scars. Stupid memory between us. Seriously i am regret it. I totally regret for what had happened within 2 months. Just hurt. Really hurt.

kau dah hilang. susah nk cari balik. pengganti xde

Ingat lg x wan. Masa kau mula2 masok plkn. Apa niat kau? kau nak blajar psl agama. Kau nk lebih mendalami agama. Kau xnk wat perkara lagha. Dan time tu kau jumpa seseorg. Ingat lg pesan ustaz, kau dkt dgn allah. Allah tolong kau cari yg terbaik utk kau. See what happened. Kau dh jumpa wan tp lepas tu kau alpa balik. Kau mula jauh dari allah. Kau leka. And allah tarik balik. And u can n0t see him again. U deserves that wan. Kau hilang die. First time taaruf. Kau xnmpk die sbb kau xminat. Tapi kau perasan x yg die tgk kau. Yeah kau lepas. Kalau kau still ngn attitude kau. Maybe those thing cant happened. Sedar wan.

bahana zina mata.. jangan pandang remeh

Even that time aku tertentang mata ngan kau. Aku rasa malu. Seriously. Youre good. I really want to know you better. But it seems like impossible just like yad and me. I do realized that dream was the best dream. Totally sweet. I like you and you also like me. And it looks like we are meant to be together. isnt sweet. haha. I hope this is real. Because i already admitted that i totally fall in love with you. Seriously. And one more thing that i realized these few days. You seems quiet. Why? is there anything that disturb you or it just my imagination again.

kenangan belah tikus.... doctor to be never scared of this kind of things...

abaikan tudung yg senget.... serabut dohhh. hahaha dah laaaa migraine pastu bau plak subhanallah memang ujian betol hahahaha anyway memang best at least I'm not scared right???? hahahahaha waiting for the next challenge... ganbatte!!!!😍😍😍😍😍

hahahaha bak kata addah " kalau ada jodoh xkemana....."

hari ni 3 disember aku ngan addah turun sbb bosan duk dlam bilik then.. kitorg g koperasi.... aku pakai jubah hitam and tudung biru while addah baju muslimah pink ..... lepas beli buku and solero dua..... aku ajak g dkb pastu g kat dewan sbb saje nak teman addah cari Mr right dimple dia tu.... hahahshsh

sampai sahaja di sana.... aku kata lasa.... addah aku senang je cari Mr right aku..... Cari janggut then dia laaa tu....

hahhahaha aku pandang laaa entah kenapa asa something..... sekali Mr right aku!!!!!! makkkk help me!!!!

aku jerit nama addah sbb time tu addah sibuk cari Mr right dimple dia.... aku bagi syarat tgk tepi aku.... then mata dia terbeliak.... hahahhaha

aku pandang sekali lagi... mata tetentang mata makkk ..... aku cepat2 tunduk.... Allahu Akbar....
aku cepat2 jalan.... addah ckp.... gila lama betul dia tengok.... kuang aja.... ahahahaha

ahaha capital O

dulu memang aku suka dier... entah bile plak aku kurang..... mungkin sbb dia suka bising dalam dewan kuliah... hmmmm tapi aku mulaa suka dia balik.. and tak sangka time exam pspm1 aku sama bilik ngan die and omggggg hahahaha tak sangka gue... then,,, aku pun loncat cam orang giler....

err aku xnak cakap pasal pspm1 sbb memang gila bangang susah Dan MUET pun lebih kurang gila jugak so..... mohon ke laut... jadi nak dikatakan cerita..... sejak 22 November 2015 baru laaa tahu yang aku bebetul suka and angau ngan dia.... hahahahha

first day of class kat dewan mahawangsa.... aku datang lambat dah laaaa pakaai baju koko kuning..... cisss jatuh maruah.... lepas aku duduk depan then baru laaaa aku perasan yang aku dok sebaris ngan die.... hahahahah sempat laaaa gak mata ni ushaaa die ketat2 hahahaha die plak sibuk jeling2 sinii.... siap teleng kepala.., gak laaaa cover sket ye.....

rupa rupanya dia pon koko gak omggg jodoh!!!!! pastu masok kelas physic tutor .., madam azlina pon ajar dia omgggg jodoh ke2...!!!!!!! aku punya laaaaa berangan mane LA tahu madam azlina nak wat extra class then ajak both tutorial utk belaja sama2 omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dalam kuliah plak aku memang tak lepas ushaaa dia..... Dan banyak Kali kantoi pastu malu2 tunduk cissss dia boleh plak kerap tgk belakang sbb nak tgk aku usha dia lagi kot shit!!!!!! dah laaa byk Kali kantoi!!!!

pastu one day.... dia tetiba lalu depan aku macam ruang antara dia ngan aku cm 1 meter punya dekat tapi aku xperasan.... aku cakap kat addah n eima. mana stokin die..... teros dia jalan laju..... aku pun pandang addah..... erk dia dengar ke??? omg shit again!!!!!

esok nyaaa aku jumpa dia kat cafe.... tapi sebenarnya otw nk g cafe..... dia ngan budak poplet... bertembung so aku amik jalan tunduk laaaa giler apa!!!!! dah laaa pandang lama bongok....

aku pon dok depan kalai.... dok tgh kutuk kalai.... tetiba poplet duduk tepi dia.... pastu kalai kemas barang dia teros bangun.... aku cakap laaa aikk kalai jangan kejam sangat... kesian budak poplet.... pastu aku pandang laaa kalai n ckp slow2 aik kalai nak g mana tu.... tgk2 otomen lalu tepi aku tengok aku panggil kalai .... shit....

pastu aku pon pandang depan balik.... pastu dia lalu depan aku teros duduk depan aku..... addah ckp Wei wan aku rasa dia dengar ko ckp pasal stokin.... tgk tu seluar .. dia labuhkan.... aku pun tgk laaa pastu dia pon tgk aku.... shit.... then dia silang kaki.... Mak aiii dia pakai stokin panjang ..... ahahahahah punya laaaa aku gelak cam org giler.....

pastu dia bangun duduk mengadap aku... aku plak ngadap fon sampai tak angkat langsung..... hahahahah taik tol kau!!!!!!

pastu hari lain .... lepas habes kelas aku cari laaa dia.... sbb dia kuar awal.... Cari punya cari tgk2 kat depan aku.... yang eima n addah tak nak ketepi last2 aku lalu tepi dia haishhhh shit jantung macam tsunami!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahhaha then ada laaa satu hari ni. aku lalu masjid otw g blok..... tgk2 dia baru balik dari masjid.... selalu nya dia akan straight je ., tapi time ni..... dia nampak aku kot.... dia stop kejap  ala ala tgk fon call orang.... pastu aku dh nak sampai dia pon kuar tapi time ni pusing kanan mknanya dia akan bertembung aku.... so,, aku plak xleh nak controll senyum.... dia pun straight ikut org depan die,... tapi org depan plak jalan laju.... disebabkan dia lambat.... dia pun pusing balik sbb bdak laki tu dah pusing kanan.... hahahahaha bila dia sampai kat blok dia duduk dulu wat2 call..... cisss ngok kau!!!!! nak ushaaa laaa tu......