another dream

2 jun 2026

Aku mimpi yg aku keje... xingat keje apa. Pastu masa tu x silap aku, aku nk g basuh pinggan lepas makan la...

 Pastu tiba2 ada zz sekali.. then tiba2 dia mcm potong aku. Pastu dia cm ckp, stop ikut dia. Aku cm kau dh nape. Aku buat bodoh. Aku tinggalkan dia... pastu g basuh pinggan kat sinki. Pastu blah.

Then tiba2 dia datang kedai aku... jumpa aku... aku buat2 busy. Pastu kebetulan. Time tu ada cust sakai. Chuah ada tolong aku. Pastu aku cm penat... aku menangis wehhh... pastu zz datang tengok n pujuk aku ajahhahahahahahhahaha anjai

😛

another dream

10 june 2026

I had this crazyyyyyy dream. Okay im in a college, so one of my lecturer is a male, handsome... okay i didnt knew who he wass...so yeah he was so famous and admired by whole female students..

 unfortunately he was married to me... one of his students. So like we kept on hiding things, kept it hidden and privacy until he mistakenly called my name in a different tone. Like how he used to called me at home. 

So i was shocked obviously but i tried to ignore and looks unbithered like i dont understand anything or didnt hear it at all.

 So then the whole class suddenly were investigating. The whole class were talking. I was scared okay. Like too scared.  If our secrets will be out. They noticed sometimes i was in same cafe as him. Bla bla bla.

Then this one boy, asking me, did i went to this restaurant one time? because just like he said, he saw that lecturer also in that restaurant and at the same time, i was inthere too. He said like it is too imposible to be coincidence... 

i just denied but he kept on like asking and suddenly he changed the topic when i still denials everything... then he said something like wanna go out together. He was asking me to go to somewhere else with him. I tried to refuse but he kept on insisting. That moment the lecturer's face were mad and red fuming red. He kept on starring at me.

So i just refused. But one of the classmates saw that and asking what is our relationship. Why did the lecturer seems bothered by that. 

He tried to denied, until the class is over. So walked away. Quickly get out from that situation. And i just try to ignore everything. When walking home, i walked alone to avoid any rumors. 

So he went home first, he cooked something. And when i arrived, he hugs me, kept on saying sorry and kissed me hahahahaha then we had a great night. Like wat the hell

Then i woke up

😛

dah lama tak healing weiii

9 july 2026

Aku last minit planning. Aku habis krje half day. Aku cadang nk g jalan2 kat toppen.

Aku pon jommmm.

4pm 

Aku pon book terus ke toppen. Ehehehehhe. Sampai je. Aku terus gerak ke shabuyaki hehehe. Dah makan2 je. 

6pm

Aku jalan2 jap ke mana2. Pastu aku tgh pikir either nak g cinema or jalan2. But time tu perut terlalu kenyangggg... so alang2 nampak popular aku pon masukkk. 

Cari2 jumpa la dua buku 💙🩵💙🩵 aku pon beliii. Then aku renew my card member.

7pm 

Aku jalan2.. i was thinking. Uhhh i need coffee. That time i saw like grab driver, taking orders from dubuyo. I looked at him and then he looked at me as well. Ahhahahahhaahj delulu again. Then we went apart as im going downstair and he went to another way. But he went back and followed the same route as me. And again i saw he looked again at me ahhahahhahahaha and then i just go straight to zus... and i didnt looked at that man again.  

So then aku decided to go to zus. And ordered the coconut cafe latte. My new go to coffee... aside than spanish latte. 

So aku pon duduk la situ while sipping my coffee. I was looking at people. Like observe.. not observe just watching some of em like they wondow shopping the skin care at watson etc. 

So then i decided, why not i just like read my book... until the mall closed.

So yeah i switched the place to more comfy chair and i started to read. I read "amukan jembalang tanah". 

Fortunately the book was so good. The storyline, characters were very interesting. I lost in time while reading. Then i looked at my surrounding. Then i saw the zus staff were like looking at me. And i was like... hmmmm?

Then i continue reading like nothing was happening. 

Then a few minutes later. I gazed again. And again they were like looking. 

Then suddenly one of the staff like get out and sit next to me. He had a sandwich or something maybe take a rest.

I was like.. whatyyyyyyyyyyyttttttt

Then i just continue reading but obviously i cant focus. Bruhhhh

Then after he left for his work again. I continue the reading until suddenly i heard the announcement informing the mall will be closed within 15min. I was shocked!!!!! I was too deep. Ahhahaha

Thennn aku pon quickly kemas2 and get ready to balik...

My... i really had a great dayyyy... its been a longggg time i didnt get to have that feelings again. Like totally lepak without worrying about time or responsibilities. And i just have my drink, book, and myself. What a great beautiful relaxing day.

I wish to do that again

Thank youuu for having a me time... for yourself 🩵💙

dear diary

Dear diary... like watdefak

I know i know its me again.... and zz

So hari emmm rabu 15 julai 2026

Okay mcm biasa keje. And dia pon cm biasa.... busyyyy tgh buat kejee... pastu aku bosan aku pon jalan2 laaa... as usualll...

Pastu time tu aku jalan tepi sshi... and aku nampak dia pandangggg jee.. Aggahahahahahahahhah kau tau tak. Aku punyaaa happyyy.. aku dok tersengih sepanjang jalan sampai la escalator hahahaha punyaaa laaa hepi ... gatai... pastu aku pon beli laaa jco donut. Sbb esok cuti 2 harii... so aku mmg nak stay up... so aku cadang laa nak beli sushiii... sbb time tu zz tu xde.. aku mmg tak nak n tak suka beli time dia ada HAHAHAHAHHAHAH

Otw aku balik ke kedai. Aku nampak dh dia tgh serve cust. Aku cm alahhhhh. Xpela tak jadi laaa... pastu time tu dia perasan aku dah. And aku nmpak diaa hahahahahha

Masa kat tv tu pon...  aku pon lek2 cover wan. Nnti kau pura2 pandang tmpat pastu slow2 pandang diaa... ahhahahaha aku pura2 pandang arah gongcha and aku tengok dia. Wehhhh dia pon pandang akuuu ahahahhahahah

Pastu aku balik dengan miang.... muka takleh cover malu HAAHHAHAHAAHHA 

Masa balik tu.. aku mmg dh start balik ke arah levis entrance. So dia pandang jeee.... aku pura2 tgh fokus tgk fon... nak book grab... pastuu aku tunggu... punya la lama aku nk tunggu dia balik. Nasib jalan cm jem. So sempat jumpa dia... weh dia pandangggg... time tu aku pura2 pandang lain. Tp mata aku ke peripheral yg tengok dia... nasib tak julinggggg

Ahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahha

kau nak apa zz

27 jun 2026

Ok time ni aku bosan gilaa... so aku pon ajak la welong kemas kedai... especially semua trial stocks cl. So masa 1st aku buang sampai stok dt1 tu zz usha aku.. aku cm biasa laaa... buat bodoh en.

Then aku buang kali kedua... dia usha jugakk.. aku mcm ehh kau pahall... kali ketiga last tu pon.. dia still usha. Tp aku cm... buat bodoh la en hahahahahha

Esok nya ada hq nak turun. So aku pon duduk la depan enn... usha hq sampai ke blom. Then time tu chah pergi toilet... pastu.. aku nmpak la chah otw balik kedai... pastu aku pon senyum laaa kat chah tu... pastu kebetulan si zz lalu nk.ke sinki... dia pandang aku.. nmpak aku senyum. Pastu.dia pandang aku skali lagi.... time tu mmg aku tgh senyum kat chah tu.. aku cm lah kau pahal

Pastu ada cust datang la after that... aku tgh ckp ngn dia... pastu aku nmpak zz pandang aku.. lama wooo

Aku cam aik? 

Pastu hari lain... aku g beli air... aku nmpak n la si zz xde.. mmg aku saje pergi beli masa dia xde. Pastu masa tgh tunggu gongcha. Dia baru balik... pastu dia berdiri depan tu lama2... aku cm lahai... berambos looo

seminar

So ni 30 jun 2026

Aku ada traininv kat holiday inn. So cm biasa aada training... aku kena duduk depan. Pastu sir zhrf ada bg taklimat. Dalam waktu dia ada mcm part perbincangan... AHAHHAHAHAH so mcm ada part kena presentation... so tiba2 si lofi tu ckp... wan.. wan fatini present 

Hahahahahah siottt,,, aku ckp...

Hahahhaha itu je 

mimpi 2 july 2026

Bruh im so sick of this dream about how im still ended up in medic era.

Okay it started with this... i think im already passed optom degree. So i dont even know how i ended up at beach 

So kat beach tu.. tiba2 aku mcm join again degree medic tu... mcm sakai laaaa en... pastu entah cmner ada satu scene... mcm ada quiz or assignment... aku boleh buat weh. Pastu aku team ngan satu geng2 laki ex classmates aku gak... tp x ingat...  pastu ada gak si fhmy tu...

Pastu ada scene yg mcm diorg nak satu grup ngn aku weh hahahaha pastu aku ignoreee je

Aku cm smpai bila ek.. nak terus terbelenggu dalam dunia era nightmare medic aku ni

sarawak woi

Okay ni masa aku gi sarawak ngn peena naki.. so and geng2 junior bawah tu.. masa otw pergi ke sarawak... okay it was my first time going to klia and taking flight so yeah.. watdehel that klia is so fuckin big

Fuck

Then kaki aku mmg teruk gila cramp... like watdefak

Then smpai kat loading bay tu... semua dh letak beg kat tempat waiting before naik flight and yeah.. semua tengah makan.. and then split those yg nak g solat... aku pon g la toilet... and i was alone. Otw nak ke beg2 luggage tu.. aku perasan yg syrf tengah berlari and tiba2 bersaing tepi aku... dia pon sembang.. nak kemana wan... aku ckp laaa.. gi kat beg kot... so kita berdua berjalan towards there... sambil sembang2... pastu slowly semua datang ...pastu peena perasan this.. dia pon ckp ecehhh wann berdua je ke...

Ahahhahaha aku gelak je laaa... so semua amik gambar2 bla bla bla... and time tu tu dia dok sembang ngan aku... dok tepi aku... sampai la geng nadhir jason datang... baru dia sembang ngn nadhir jason 

Pastuuu 

Sampai kat sarawak... kitorang jumpa geng2 senario wehhh... that was unrealll... i love emm...

Then sampai sarawak bla bla bla... ada la satu hari yg kita boleh gi jalan2 kat sarawak kuching tu.. and as always aku and peena. Pastu time tengah makan... aku n peena tgh cari nak makan apa en. Pastu dia pon datang kat aku... buat2 tanya nk makan apa .. weh aku jual mahal do.. buat2 cm tak layan.. (i just realised when im typing this.. i do have problem with avoidant attachment) dehelllll

Then waktu balik ke semenanjung klia... aku cm sekali lagi. Kaki aku melecet.. fak sakit gilaaa. Aku kat belakang sekaliii... yg lain semua tinggal aku termasuk peena... well im not blaiming her... so aku cm... jalan je la.slow2... pastu aku nmpak dia tengah tunggu tepi toilet lelaki... aku cm ohhh kau tengah tunggu kawan kau kot... guna toilet... tiba2 dia pon bersaing ngn aku gi ke entrance. Aku cm ehhh?

Pasti sampai laaa aku kat entrance waiting for bas rapidkl ktsn tu datang pick us up.

Then tiba2 gemg2 laki nk beli mixuee... then tiba2 peena tanya, wan nape aku nampak kau ngn syrf berjalan sama2 weh.. aku ckp la aku xtau wehhh... tiba2 jeee....

Pastu naki ckp.. wehhh untung la kauu.. kau nk kawin ngn dia ke... aku cm lahaiiii ngok.laaa

pasal peenaa said something about me and nadhir aka danish

 okay that day,, masa dalam klinik paeds

tiba2 peena tanya,, weh lately aku nmpak nadhir tu sellau sembang ngn kau... ada apa2 ke

aku cm ehhh xdeee la.. sembang biasa je laa

pastu naki cm tanya siyes laaaa 

aku cm tak laa... 

pastu peena.... weh aku selalu nampak dia sembang ngn kau.. aku cm xde la

exam final.. tiba2 aku dpat dr remi ishak

At first aku sepatut encik hafizun utk fitting....

Sambung 

Aku xtau la... tapi mcm okay kot. 

After care: dr mznim

Pt ada staining, limbal rednesss, papillar mgd.. dia layak tak nak pakai cl. Aku ckp je boleh sbb staining bawah grade 2. So aku bagi recommend sihy sbb low water content.

-complication guna sihy.

-apa beza mucin ball, protein deposit n lipid deposit.

Fitting: Dr remi ishak

-kanan scl: loose

-kiri rgp: steep

-management 

-kenapa ada wujudnya bubble dalam rgp. 

-why rgp better than scl

-ok rgp pakai 1,2 tahun. Kalau scl ada ke conventional. (Aku konfiden jawab ada.) Pastu dia tanya berapa lama. (Aku tersilap ckp 30 hari). Tapj wehhh dia betulkan. Dia tak marah pon. Dia ckp ehh yeke, bukan ke tu continuous. Aku pon ehhhh ya Allah betul2. Yg continuos 30 hari. Conventional 1 tahun

- okay awak pernah dengar tak pasal mucin ball

-mcm mana mucin ball tu berlaku

Ira: baiknya dr remy ishakkk

Haah aku ckp... mucin ball, dia bentuk droplet yg ada kat surface cl tu. Tp mostly common causes mucin ni sbb pakai sihy. Tp protein deposit, dia keras yg calcified deposit accumulated. Lipid deposit, oily suface kat surface cl.

Aku ckp ni. Dr mznim dr remi ishak cm angguk2 je.. 

So betul la kot. Aku pon taktau

Diorg be like:

 peh wannn

 patut ah dr remy sayang

Untung ar jdi kesayngn dr

april 2023

the second last day before cuti raya

Dr remmy ishsk 

Aku tgh frame room. Tgh best speaking .. pastu dia masuk ahahhaha

aku tengah speaking ngan patient indian, so aku tengah speaking bagai.. okay, lets take a seat, aku try explain everything all the lens etc HAHAHHAH and then dr remy masuk HAHAHAHA yg si bangang nye peena cakap,, eceh wannn... speaking lets take a seat... aku cm lahhhh bomgok laaa

13 april 2023